my grandson carl robert

Monday, May 25, 2009


He is my grandson Carl,he is 6 years old in his Pic this was taken last year, but he is turning 7 years old this year, I can say he is one blessing that God given to us.We don't ever expect that this boy will be still alive, he was in a very serious situation during his new birth, he stayed in the incubator for almost a month, he was just 1.8 kilos, he looks like an alien during his new birth, his tummy just covered with very thin skin that we can be able to see his intestine. He has a big head, and he didn't look like a person but an appearance of the animal.The doctor says's just miracle can help him, we just can't do anything we already did our best, but my son and his wife has a strong faith in God, they just let God to make his own well, because we believed God is our healer the great provider, after 2 months the boy was come out from the hospital, and he was growing up a very smart and talented boy, even he is not a normal boy like other but we appreciated God for his goodness,now he is in grade 1 and he is the small but terrible if his teacher explained, he is very creative and bright. He can do his homework alone, he can be able to answer his papers, he even gets the first award in his kindergarten. He has a good voice, he can sing and like to praising God.I'm looking forward to his growing years to come.

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my first winter experience

Friday, May 22, 2009


When was the last time you experienced something for the first time?" I suddenly remembered this line from the Discovery Channel. It’s amazing how things like these creep into your mind unexpectedly.
This is my first time to experience winter. Yes, my first time to experience the season and my first time to be in korea. Talk about killing two birds with one stone. Growing up, I always read about winter in books, saw it in pictures and paintings and watched it in movies and with my daughter explainations. But little did I know that experiencing it first-hand would be a different thing altogether.
I can’t say exactly when I noticed it was winter, but the leaves on some of the trees gave me the clue. Not only are they turning brown color, the mountains and all sorroundings were look so sad like there is no life for the trees. The leaves of the trees were quite noticeably there is no one you can see . The winter view is a popular thing in korea. The mountains are brown color. but if snow falls the mountain and all sorrunding was great very interesting and i felt amazed because of the new look i had seen.


Another thing I noticed that time was that my black jacket no longer keeps me warm during snow days. Yup, definite chill in the air those days. Might need to bundle up very very soon. I’m really a summer person and i am so old to felt the winter cold, my body was weak enough to feel chill and freezing cold. Also, unlike in the Philippines where sunrise and sunset are more consistent, In korea winter season, 4:30pm seems like 7pm when the sun sets and casts shadows in the darkening sky and surroundings. It all seems strange for a first-timer like me, but I am sure everyone around me doesn’t give a heck that it’s pretty dark by 5:30pm and stars seldom to see. In philippines sky were so beautiful full of starbright but in korean winter season seems so lonely for me. So, pardon my elation about such trivialities. What may seem insignificant to some, may be consequential to me.
I am really looking forward to experiencing the another season in korea . If it means getting chilled to the bone or watching the trees everyday changing into white color because of the snow then I won’t mind doing it. After all, that was may be my first and last winter experience.

My first experience to go abroad

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

It was november 2004, My youngest daughter family was invited us to visit in korea just for a couple of month, at first i was scared just to imagine i don't ever experience to go for a trip, i just know how to take a bus going to the city but it was only sometimes, but it was the time i can say i was so ignorant to go for the first time, i nver tried to ride an airplane even i don't see it in near place. Yes i am not new for the aircraft but i never seen it near me. I just open dreaming that i am inside of that plane it's only a dream i nver epected that my dream become true.

In our situation we are poor who think i can go abroad? ofcourse is not bad to imagine that someday i can fly in the clouds, i just imagining what other country looks like? what are they doing? are they also eat rice like us? there are also poor or most poorer than us. I have so many question ever since. and that time was my first time to step in front of the domestic airport. My very first time, i felt cold and nervous, i want to pee or felt like urinating? I really can't explaine
the excitement w/ nervous feeling, doemistic plane is not that big like international plane, when we arrived in manila international airport my husband told me to watch the big plane "haha" i accepted that we are very innocent for those stuff, ofcourse i grew up in the mountain and there is no city and building there, i only saw birds and wild animals. But the airplane is not an animal it is very big plane like the house. I felt like i am in the other part of the earth, like the big door was open and i am entering the gate of mars or jupiter. My husband and I was very new for that stuff, looking there,looking here, looking everywhere and all are seems very interesting.

My oldest son was with us and i know he was felt uneasy because of what we are acting with my husband maybe he felt ashameD. He told us just behave, many people are looking to us, and i was embarassed with what my son says, maybe he think we are acting like people go down from the mountain, haha oh yeah we are acting like that. But we can't help our self to appreciate the new things we discovered, i told my husband really life is full of wonderful things. Time goes so fast we already in the airplane and arrived the inchon south korea airport, i dont ever think that i will felt freezing cold, almost froze to death that time, no, I'm not kidding,
Well, maybe exaggerating a bit about the "death" part but other than that, It was the coldest I’ve felt in my entire life.

It was my first time to experience the winter season. It was around 11pm
and the sky was somewhat cloudy, although some stars were visible and the moon was playing peek-a-boo from time to time behind floating clouds. We are in the entrance of inchon airport and felt terible. I was already thinking, “Damn! It’s a cold night.” The night was already chilly but the wind… my goodness!… I could feel my body temperature literally plummet with every step I took. After 5 minutes of walking, my hands were white and I zipped my jacket to my neck. After 10 minutes, I had goose bumps on my arms and legs (yes, I could feel them all right!) and my nostrils felt like I was inhaling ice. After 15 minutes,while waiting for the bus going to my daughter hometown where they are living.
my hands were numb and seemed frozen and I felt like I was in a freezer. I started to jog just to warm myself up. After 20 minutes, I was telling myself, “Think sun! Hot water bottle! Chili pepper!” Little good that did me.

I was glad when we rich the house, i felt refresh and have a good sleep.

= be continue=

my memories with my kids

Monday, May 18, 2009

I want to share my memories with my children, each of them have their own personalities and attitudes, they also have their own uniqueness.






Here is my eldest daughter" beth" she is 42 years old a bachelor degree, she is a teacher, though she was assigned in the mountainous are to teach,it takes 5 hours walked, but she just follow where she destined, its because teaching is her obligation and as a teacher its her responsibilities t take all task given to him, not because of his profession but because she want to help other kids to learn somthing. She want to choose her choices but thinking about the kids in the mountain who need educations and want to have a better life, she decided to go there even she will be far from her family. She is stubborn women, what she want she will get, we always fight with our own principles, maybe because i'm an eldest and also she is, we often have misunderstanding even in a small thing, she is a high tempered woman and i do they same or maybe we have similar attitude but don't want to accept it. Well, she is my daughter and i do love her, Even we acting like dog and a cat if we met, i enjoyed being with her, she also a sweet daughter but she is not a showy one.




She is my second daughter "neng" she is 38 year old, single and soon to marry. She is a missionary graduate, been working in church half of her life. An active and devoted christian, a loving, understanding and wonderful sister to her siblings. She is a woman with her own word, she is very supportive sister and daughter for us. She is humble and good adviser to her close friends and family. she is the favorite sister of her siblings.She been also a teacher of kinder garten school at our very own place, no wonder why she loves little child. She's kinda strict but nice to be with. Sometimes my youngest sone told me, Neng is very supportive to him everytime he needs money for his project she will give without any words.



She is my 3rd daughter rowena, close family called her "weng" She is smart and bright, i can say she is short and small but terrible, have a strong determination, wanted to be rich, well, thats not bad though. she been struggled how to deal with difficult life. She is an honored student in her academic class. She graduated BSED. She finished her college trough the help of her younger brother and she selling a "yema" candy made of milk just to buy her projects and to send some groceries for us.

I admire her for being a strong woman, and thoughtful wife. she is married with korean man, and now stable with her business, when she was a young girl she often go with me to sell some fishes to the mountain walking for an hour just to sell our item and to buy some rice, but sadly we often back home without any cash, or we just return our fishes without money. Sometimes im smiling recalling back our memories and happy moments. Sometimes i cried, because of hardship we had before. But my daughter whing i can say, she has the deterrmintation, goal to lift up us from poverty. Im thankful to her,cos i have her in my life.


He is my oldest son romel, we called him "nonoy" He is an artist specialized in painting, currently he is managing a small net cafe and printing shop. He is a missionary graduate,
Very sensitive,Takes time to recover when hurt,but seldom shows emotions.Frank but not rude,Straight forward,open minded,friendly,God fearing,Strict but responsible, he hates rules and commands. he doesn't want to be insulted, He been in ministry for a 8 years, he went abroad just to save and make his life comfortable, and he did it. he has a strong dedication. He wanted to become rich and he believed if what the mouth speak it will happen. He is a good brother to his siblings. He is fun but somtimes he easily iretates sepcially if somone hurts here or if he doesnt like what you do. He is friendly, i can say he is also one of my best boy, all of my boys are best =).




He is my older son "jojo" a business minded person. He graduated in Bible school as a missionary or a pastor. Now he is happily married with kids while minister the word of GOD.

he been in ministry for almost 10 years now,he is funny and smart, he knows how to deal people old and young. He is sweet and caring, a talkative person. happily working as a pastor





My youngest daughter, i can say she is the most horrible daughter i have, i been wasted my tears for her during her high school day, i dont any expectation for her. She just gave me headache and teary eyes. She doesn't like to study during her high school, but she is not stupid or slow learning. Her teacher often called me to go to the advicers office just to heard about her cutting classes,
I never expected that the worst kid i have will have a better life,She tried to work as a helper, but I was against of her idea to work in her younger age maybe she was 16 years old that day, after her high school she went out and find her own way to earn and to work, after she save some money she ask me to study in college, her sister helped her some but she study hard. She got a high grades that i don't ever expected. After she graduated from her computer secretarial she move to to the city to work, and been studying again for her another course, she been a working student.
Now she is happily married with 2 kids.

My youngest son, all of our family never expected that i can have him in my 40's, my youngest daughter and him have 8 years gap, all of my children was angry and hated me because i got pregnant in my older age, they felt ashamed, but i really don't regret that i have him, i also tend to give him to other person who need baby, its because of we called poverty. But my youngest daughter cried because she doesn't like to be far from her brother.
He is smart and talented, she just graduated from his major bachelor of arts major in English. and wanted to get other courses in the next simester, He is the one i can say luckiest among his siblings, he never experience what difficult life his sibling had been through, He just grew up with easy living, he never went to school with empty stomach,
He is sweet and caring among the boys, He always shares his crushes and loveones.
well, all of them have their own style and ways to appreciate us. i can say i am luckiest mother on earth. I dont ask for more.i am enough and contented,








My memories with my mom

Sunday, May 17, 2009



Open your hand wide to your brother, to your poor and your needy, in your land. —Deuteronomy 15:11
More than one-half of the world’s people live in poverty. Poverty and hunger are such a big problem in our world that it’s easy for us to feel helpless or to become hard-hearted and do nothing.

She is my dearest mom, she's 82 years old, she is a kind of mom that people will adore, she is open hearted woman have a strong determination,and have a wonderful ambitions. Believe it or not she is the mother of 14 childrens. She is my idol and my great mentor in life. Without her i can't say my life is perfect even what life i been up to.

I remember when i was a young girl my mom is so strict. She is a perfectionist mom, well disciplined even to her kids and to her self too. I have so many memories of her, she often bit us every time we had a mistake but she keep asking sorry for what she did and she explained well, she hit us its because she doesn't want us to be a bad kids, she want us to grow up as a good person.

she loves to wear philippine national dress, long skirt and blouses, she also love flowers and kids, every sunday there are lots of kids in her house, she teach bible stories and bible games to the children. Give foods to them, thats the great habbit that she love most. She is very helpful, ask to all persons in our place about her, and they will answer if what kind of womam my mom is, she is popular being a beautiful grandmom, yes she is! she doesn't go out unprepared, she will sure that she looks presentable.
All children loves her very much even in her 80's kids and young respected her. I remember when i was 8 years old something, my mom always help to ouir neighbor even our foods is just enough for our meals, but she will say's we can have our meal today even in a small amount of foods. How about them? since then, i learn what my mom wanted to explain. give if you wanted to recieve.

I was grew up in what we called poverty, my parents and the rest of our neighborhood was poor. We strived hard to find our food in the forest to get some wild fruits and vegestables. i know what is poverty because i been there, i experienced how to leave without any hope and dreams. when i was a young girl i have only one dream to finish my work and eat. is that simple but while i was growing up and having a kids,that simple dream become wider that i can't able to reach, yes having a kids crying because of hunger you can't able to stop dreaming that someday you will become a superwoman or superstar so you can able to give the things your kids needed,

But God doesn’t close His eyes to the plight of the poor. When He gave His people guidelines for living, He included instructions on ways to care for the needy (Deut. 15:11). He told His people, “You shall not harden your heart, nor shut your hand, from your poor brother, [but] open your hand wide to him and willingly lend him sufficient for his need” (vv.7-8).
God also commanded His people not to glean the corners of their fields so that the less fortunate could gather food (Lev. 19:9-10). And Jesus showed His compassion for the poor by His words and actions.
As Christians, we cannot ignore the plight of the poor today. Individuals and churches can join with Christian organizations working to combat poverty as they spread the Word. God has a heart for the poor. Do we?

childish guilt

Saturday, May 16, 2009

When my youngest son Bobie was just 4 year old of age he used to play at our backyard alone.One hot afternoon he caught a frog and put it upsidedown inside the hole that he dug and sealed it with coconut shell and rock.At that night when the dinner was finished everybody prepared for bed,because they have a class on next day.during midnight the boy cannot sleep well,it seems that there is something that bothered in his mind and I was so worried about him,I asked him if he’s not feeling well,but he shook his head,until I asked him for second time, but he just keep on silence.10 min or more passedby he asked me…he said;Nanay(mom),if somebody burried me alive i will die?and I answered to him;ofcourse you will die!and he ask again;I can’t breath?I replied;yup!I’m become hungry?he ask again yup!I answered.he keep on asking until he asked again,and he said;How about the frog? I wondered why he asked like those question to me and I asked him,why?did you killed a frog?my son replied;no!i just put the frog upsidedown inside the hole that i dug this afternoon… I understood why he cannot slept during that night.I asked my oldest son to go with his youngest brother to save the frog.we go outside of our house and he find the place where he burried the frog and i just watched them while he ran and to find it.at last he found the hole.in great relieve and overflowing joy he hold my hand and look up in my eyes…with smile he said;the frog is still alive!


Sometimes we suffered from guilts and our consience(Shakespears called it,the thorn of the flesh) keep on remind us of what we did and we kept it in our heart and mind for long time…sometimes we ashamed and afraid to share it even to our family and friend.But,you know God is able to forgive us, his arms is open to accept our fault and weaknesses and give us rest and relieve from heavy loads of guilts and consequences of what we did…God loves you…



He is here right now . 14 years after, he still remember what he did before. And he learned a lot from it.

My unforgetable experience

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Back 1998 I undergone with gall bladder surgery,I've been carried that sick for almost 20 years in my life.Before i felt so different inside my body, there are times that i can't able to breath but i just kept it alone. I don't want that my family will worried about my situation,but with in 20 years i don't have any idea what kind of illness i had. Since i don't go to hospital for medication so i leave it like that. Year 1998 i felt so terrible pain and unexplainable feeling comes often.at first i hide from my childrens and husband but later i just can't bear the pain and i felt i gonna die that time. but still i endured it for more that 1 year, until my 3rd daughter went to hongkong for work as a domestic helper. But unluckily she was terminated. She back home and do a small business like selling some sandwiches in burgos market and let other persons borrowed her money and get some interest from them. She send me in hospital to know my body condition and and the doctor said i need operation to take out the stone that grew inside my gall bladder it's was already acute. After a few days, i was admited in hospital in provencial hospital in bacolod, I was worried about money problem because i know we dont have that much. But God always heard our prayers,there are some person who donated their blood for me,and some friends send their small help. I felt so glad beside of my fear because i know i was blessed with good and loving family.

After my surgery i was in my hospital bed, happed the doctor requested to buy some medicine for my surgery, and my youngest daughter who were incharge to look over me while i am in hospital went out to buy some medicine and it took too long before she coming back, and i was so tired and felt pain so i try to put my head down but i stroke it wrong and i felt i was dying. i strive to breath for almost 30 minutes in that position there are some persons beside me but they don't know what was happineng,because i can't speak, When she came back my face was already dark and i almost die, but i saw her laughing because she think im just acting. i wan't to angry but she was young though.but she doing her best too, i can't blame her beause i don't wait until she come back.

after to days, my body condition getting good, one night, my daughter sleep beside me in bed maybe she felt so tire for how many days didn't sleep and can't lay down. i felt some hot and i need som space so i get the chair and setdown while talking to other person's in the same room.i don't noticed one of the nurses come and need to give me a dose, she show my daughter laying down in the bed so she take out the short to give a dose, she almost press the syringe ishouted she is not the patient i am, ^^ the nurse was very angry because she almost gave a dose to my daughter.


Since then my body is not that normal anymore i was felt some sick and different. i can't eat normally. but im happy there is God always with me. my husband and children are always supported me. I felt so blessed among the mother in the world.

Sunset on the Horizon ( Punta Bulata)

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Everyone love watching sunset, of course to have a good imagery of beautiful sunset we need a good place where we can view the total image of sun setting down the horizon. There are lots of places in the world where they can witness the setting of the sun. One of this place is punta bulata, anyways i am proud living in this place, this is the most wonderful place that i cant leave, this place where i start seeing the world. Before the light meet the darkness, you can see the orange sunset from the horizon the beautiful image that can captured you soul and interest. There are lots of people from different places loves to stay in Punta bulata, not for having a coolest place, but one thing that they really like to be here is to watch the sunset.



This was the last vacation of my son, he is from dumaguete city. This was taken in punta bulata place. This image is not same from above image, somtimes sunset depends on the weather. During this photo shot, there are some cloudies cover the sun. But still you can view the light reflects the water below. It was taken 4 PM i think the light illuminates the sorrounding and slowly close to darkness.





oh.another thing, not only human love watching sunset even this little dog know what sunset is. A nice shot from mobile phone, a perfect timing with sunset telling that, human and animals know how to understand the beautiful creation of God.

God Bless..

Secret how to handle poverty

Tuesday, May 12, 2009



As what i have mentioned we are came from a poor family, we worked hard for our daily life, from the scratch to the next level. I remembered when my grandson played the computer games he tried to fight with the monster without any weapon and he worked hard for the game. He fights as a real fighter; he thinks he is the one who fight for. Wishing in one monster he can kill he can get any weapon from it,

Same with our life when we are struggling from what we called poverty, we always wished there is any weapon to fight for, always wishing to get more power to continue for the next level. I wished we can have some money to buy some foods for the next meal.

Thinking for my children how to feed them for the next day, it seems my heart broke into pieces, so i need to help my husband to find money to buy any food for our next meal or else we will die, even what life we have done i never blame God because i know he has a purposed for us. I always thank him for not leaving us in times of hardship and trials, instead he recharge our force and give more power to strive the to fight the poverty.

I remember last 2003 the new owner of our land was requested us to move out from that place because they need to close to make private property, so we don’t have any reason to stay there. But i believed God really have plan for us. we moved to the place were some people stay near the school, my eldest daughter bought a lot to build our house near to her, also my children helped us how to build a new home with small store. In the morning i make salted peanut or sweetened peanut to sell, i also learn how to make ice candy which I sold out 4000 pieces a week i can have profit half of the ice candy capital. Sometimes i went to the market to buy some surplus clothes or curtain and i remade it. i sell in a low prices to my neighbors. I also sweet potato crackers or snack and i sell it to the elementary school. Sometimes I made Philippine native dessert and sell just to get more income.

But my main source of income is a small piggery. Which I started with only one pig after three months I sold out I bought more 2 pigs with my money until my pig become 6 and growing more, and now i have lots of them, my daughter helped me to build a piggery and now I have plenty of pigs and looking forward for our goal. We have a goal to sell 100 or more pigs a month and more sows for the near future. I was excited for this business and i wish this business will grow my daughter and I have a plan for this, She want to help for the old persons who don’t have family and children who want to study but cannot because of what we called poverty.

“There is a saying say's poverty is not the hindrance to success" This motto always give me hope and strength and i always thank GOD for his faithfulness he never leave us instead he always shower us with his blessing. I felt so blessed because I know there is God always willing to catch me if I'm down.

Sometime i felt sad to those mom out there just sitting down without any thing to do, just waiting for their husband to got home from work or opposite husband just sitting down while the wife having a hard time to find money. If you want to out from what we called poverty now is your time there are lots of way how to earn small amount of money. Don’t wait until the grace come in front of you stand up and go to find it.

Community Life style

Our place is not populated, not fully developed and cannot be called a city.This is a place where people living with same lifestyle. They have there own houses mostly made of nipa's and bamboo's. Its the only house that the people can afford in our community, people showing their unity to one another by helping and sharing what they have most especially their foods. The place are surrounded by tall coconuts which help neutralize the heat of the climate. This place is good for relaxation if you have problems, and for vacation since we have our own beaches and resort ready to serve you. Our community is a peaceful place where people are afraid in committing crimes. They respect the rights of everybody even though some of us didn't know what are the human rights, the only thing is that, just for the good of one life then go for what it takes at end.



Since this place is near distance from the sea, lots of children are enjoy swimming with their peers. They love playing,swimming with their sister, brother and friends. It seems that they are all contented what they have, even though the poverty are continued to attack our community. But doesn't matter we are all searching for a good solution. The only thing people do to fight poverty? to have a small income by fishing, farming and extra income from selling goods. They look happy for what they have for their life.


Only few people having sari sari store in our community, this is a store which you can find different goods and foods. Its a place where people in community choose what foods to eat a day. having sari sari store is not that easy, you need to have good capital and a place for your goods to sell and display.Before operating this little business you need to find bigger goods and foods supplier where you can buy it lower than selling price ate least you can have small profit from it. Sometimes people in our place can take goods trough credits or "utang" in our own words.
Since they are all living in same place its allowed to take goods with pay later, this is the attitude of people that we possessed. People in our community can be trusted and they have words of honor. Sad to say there are lots of people in our community who do not have a good education, having graduated in Elementary is enough for them. We are all wishing for someone who can make seminar and programs that can help people in our community to improve their lifestyle, and how to have an income by making a small business. With the guide of expertise may the people in this place can learn a lot.

My unforgetable experience

Monday, May 11, 2009

Back 1998 I was undergone with gall bladder surgery,I've been carried that sick for almost 20 years in my life.Before i felt so different inside my body, there are times that i can't able to breath but i just kept it alone. I don't want that my family will worried about my situation,but with in 20 years i don't have any idea what kind of illness i had. Since i don't go to hospital for medication so i leave it like that. Year 1998 i felt so terrible pain and unexplainable feeling comes often.at first i hide from my childrens and husband but later i just can't bear the pain and i felt i gonna die that time. but still i endured it for more that 1 year, until my 3rd daughter went to hongkong for work as a domestic helper. But unluckily she was terminated. She back home and do a small business like selling some sandwiches in burgos market and let other persons borrowed her money and get some interest from them. She send me in hospital to know my body condition and and the doctor said i need operation to take out the stone that grew inside my gall bladder it's was already acute. After a few days, i was admited in hospital in provencial hospital in bacolod, I was worried about money problem because i know we dont have that much. But God always heard our prayers,there are some person who donated their blood for me,and some friends send their small help. I felt so glad beside of my fear because i know i was blessed with good and loving family.

After my surgery i was in my hospital bed, happed the doctor requested to buy some medicine for my surgery, and my youngest daughter who were incharge to look over me while i am in hospital went out to buy some medicine and it took too long before she coming back, and i was so tired and felt pain so i try to put my head down but i stroke it wrong and i felt i was dying. i strive to breath for almost 30 minutes in that position there are some persons beside me but they don't know what was happineng,because i can't speak, When she came back my face was already dark and i almost die, but i saw her laughing because she think im just acting. i wan't to angry but she was young though.but she doing her best too, i can't blame her beause i don't wait until she come back.

after to days, my body condition getting good, one night, my daughter sleep beside me in bed maybe she felt so tire for how many days didn't sleep and can't lay down. i felt some hot and i need som space so i get the chair and setdown while talking to other person's in the same room.i don't noticed one of the nurses come and need to give me a dose, she show my daughter laying down in the bed so she take out the short to give a dose, she almost press the syringe ishouted she is not the patient i am, ^^ the nurse was very angry because she almost gave a dose to my daughter.


Since then my body is not that normal anymore i always felt sickness and complicated illness. i can't eat normally. but im happy there is God always with me. my husband and children are always supported me. I felt so blessed among the mother in the world.

Fisherman's Life

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Survival is one way of avoiding or coping bad situation and condition. As of now there are 80% of poor people who are now suffering from what we called poverty.But still they have ways on how to overcome poverty and they are always looking for survival. They have different ways on how to earn money, how to find foods for family even though this is not enough to be called stable life. The only occupation that we have are fisherman and farmers, in our community this occupation mostly the poor people have like us.

I wanna share with you the story of our life as a fisher man,This is my husband name Roberto Cayao. We are one of the survival people from poverty, but its not the hindrance to commit success. We live in a place where only few people can be called having a good life, we are belong to a low class in our community. The only thing that help us to hold on our faith is our God, with God nothing is impossible. Well back to the story, we survive through fishing using our boat, nets and fishing knot. Men usually go for fishing.

They are called fisherman, they spent half of their days and nights on the water searching for a good spot to have a nice catch.We often called fisherman as"mananagat" means working on the sea. Fishing is not that easy to think and to do, there are lots of challenge along the way before you can have a good catch, you need to know different ways of fishing in order for you to have a good catch. In fishing there are also legal and illegal, Illegal where its not allowed in our society but some people still doing it for them its their way to have more fish to catch. Because of poverty people didn't think for what is good and what is bad, for them the only thing is to have a food for their family and survive from poverty. Life of a fisherman is not that easy, there are struggle and challenges came along their way, there's pain,stress and sometimes they got sick for not sleeping all night. It is one of the risky occupation, there are some fisherman lost their life for not taking care of thier jobs. Along fishing they encounter waves that sometimes bigger than our boats, sometimes they lost the direction to their way home and the only guide they have is the stars at night. Fishing is not a daily job, we sometimes check the weather and climate iether its good for fishing or not. There are nights that got zero, it means no catch. They go home with a sad faces,they knew that their family waiting for them, expecting for foods that they can bring home but its a life, we are leaving in a hope to have successfull tomorrow. But in my situation all tommorows are failure only God knows what he need, and he knew what he think off.

This is our boat, its very important for us, its our resting place on sea. This is our transportation from dry land to the vast area of ocean. This is what we called pumpboat, it operates by motor and it travels 30- 40 KMH. Without it we cant do fishing or else we used smaller and not operated by motor. We used paddle to move to our distination.

history of punta bulata beach resort

Saturday, May 9, 2009


You might be wondering what is punta bulata or where is it? Punta Bulata is located in Barangay Elihan, Cauayan Municipality, Negros Occidental, Philippines, bordering Sipalay City. It is 158 km. south
of Bacolod City. Getting to the resort by car takes approximately 2 1/2 to 3 hours. There are several road signs by the highway that will
guide you there. From the city center (Provincial Capitol Building) of Bacolod, travel southwards, taking the national highway. A few meters
after the 154 km. marker by the road, make a right turn into a side road. Travel 4 km. down this road until you reach Punta Bulata Resort.

Here is the short information about this resort and the location,
Anyway,here is the history of the place i've mentioned, Punta bulata beach resort was known as "balaring" back 1920's if i'm not wrong. My husband ancestors was the first owner of that land,that is quiet big for almost 10 hectars but they sold the some part of the land. and just left 3.4 hectars as i remember. and the land goes to my husband. This place was very peaceful,and scenic view,a beautiful sunset and white sand. This beach we used to live for almost half of our life, Here we make our living,grew our kids,this place is the part of our life, from my huband down to my youngest son. I still remember how much happy all the person living here, person from the mountain passed by in this beach just to get some relaxation from fishing,or tiredness from thier daily life. many mountainers or poor family came here to gather thier foods to feed their kids, this beach is source of our daily foods and daily needs. Holidays is the best to remember, lots of people bring their foods,bring their family just to enjoy the beauty of this beach, there were no toll gates and fee, they can used the beach for free. we enjoyed watching those people who are happy spending their time with us, My husband always protect the sea dont touch the small fishes dont used dynamite, or else you will not able to come again.

In this place my kids grown up, before there were no cars, we used to walked from the main roads come to hour home. there are no play ground there is nothing at all,this beach is only a beach. this is a coconut farm we used for our living too.I was happy watching my kids who enjoyed to playe with their friends, i can say, that time was our more happy moments with the beach we call balaring, i thought we will live there until we getting old,and we will die in that place, but that was only a dream. Back 1995 my husband got sick lungs problem, and we need money for his medication and we have a college students who near to graduate,we dont have any choice. One day, zayco and lopez family come to our place,they are very interested about our beach, we really don't have any plan to sell that, but due to health and financial problem. zayco family promising us if we sell our land to them my kids and the rest of our family can work regular to their business, promising to help us if we needed, thinking my kids future and the financial problem, my husband decided to sold it,in a very small amount, just 190thousand peso. in dollar maybe 3000 dollar only, it was painful to think because they know we are in very difficult situation and we really need some money. so they owned,they developed after a year this beach was become famous. lots of foreigner come to visit this beach they called Punta bulata beach resort. But my kids is not that stupid to ask help from them, my children study hard to have their own life,not to ask to that kind of person. The most painful is even we are the x owner we can't able to enter without tall gate. we even can't recieved any discount if we don't ask to the main office. i seldome come to that place and good memories change into bad memories.

about my self

Thursday, May 7, 2009



I'm adelfa cayao 60 years old, I'm the eldest among 16 siblings, i grew up in a country side or we called mountain, my home town was located in pantag, mountain of cauayan negros occidental Philippines, from the high way it takes 1 hour to reach our house, but it was long time ago. To imagine I'm eldest daughter among 15 sibling but we are 14 who are now alive. I can't forget the hardship that I been experienced when I was a young girl. My ambition is to go to school like other students, to play with friends and classmates. But all of my dreams never come along. Instead I stayed in the river to wash the laundry all they long and grind some corn using stone grinder for our meals. That was my everyday doing. That was my obligation as laundry girl. Every time I stayed alone while doing the laundry I cried because deep inside my heart I want to go to school, I want to live as a normal kids like other, but I just grew up without ambitions. But to think about the do re me sisters and brother I lost my hope to make my dream come true. Until I reach the age of 15, I been so tired for my daily worked. At the age of 15 I decided to get married. to think if I got married maybe my work are going to lessen, I really expected after marriage I will be comfortable, I will not do any laundry, I really dreaming just to stay at home taking care of my kids and to study alone. But after marriage all disasters was arrived, my mom in-law is like a monster, we always fight every day, But in spite of that bad treatment and not so good relationship but we been in one house for so long time, until she passed away in her old age. My husband is a fisherman, when we are in our younger years and after our marriage he always went to other island for fishing, I really regret why I got married at that young aged. But I’m a person who want to finished what I been started. My husband was a smoker,drunkard,and a great gambler. All his income from fishing he just used for gambling, he arrived home drunk. Since then I learned how to be matured enough I can't trust my husband its because of his bad habits, If only I can choose I prefer to leave him, but I had one word. I promised to my parents to make my own family in hardship or in vain. Since, I tried to wash other people's laundry using hand washed; I received a small amount at the time. I learned how to fix the fishing net, how to fix our home and I learn how to earn money to raise my 7 children with irresponsible husband? no i can't say he was irresponsible because beside of his bad habbit he never do any bad to our kids, he was responsible enough to do his rules as a back bone of the family,only i hate most is his bad habbit,i doing laundry or our neighbor in dawn.
I gathered coconut leaves or nipa leaves to make a house roof. In country side in Philippines people used nipa roof to have some cool place to live. I made it and sell, I also sell peanuts and other crackers in school it’s a basic house small business, I sell during vacant hour.. Sometimes i sell fishes if my husband gets some fish. i just walking for 4 to 5 hours, with a loud voice. All of that difficulties i've experienced. I also tried to kill myself it’s because of stress and tiredness and I really want to rest, but to think about my 7 kids who are still young and needed me I endured all of that trials, Until they going to school I felt so sad being a poor my kids are very affected, we even can't buy their new clothes, new shoes even toys. But I always trust in God that someday we can have a better life. and my kids growing up without sickness and away from bad doing, I always teaches them how to respect others and be afraid of their parents and from God, and most of all how poor we are just finished their education, that is only treasure I can able to give them. We don't have anything, I let them to finish their elementary and after still hoping to finished their high school, and my husband was changed. He quit smoking, drinking and gambling. That entire he was totally changed. he been a good father and a active Christian, I was thankful to my second daughter, she is the reason why their father was totally change, at first I don't really understand what she was doing. She always went to church, UNITED PENTECOSTAL CHURCH. Every time she went to church I requested her to get so many water full the tank of water and washed all the laundry care the cows and carabao's but she didn't say anything she just did it without murmuring. Lately I understand, through the young girl's prayer his father was totally changed, there are lots of signed before my husband decided to visit the church, and since then, we accepted the bible study and the miracles comes, my eldest daughter finished her college, all of my children been doing a good job. They helping each other hand in hand, from my eldest daughter down to my youngest son already finished their courses, and some of them have a stable family, and just 2 now not married yet. I am hoping that someday if were gone in this world, they will learn and understand the world where they came from. They will understand and realize how difficult to have a family without a stable job, without exact education and early marriage. If you know how to drawn near to God everything is possible, God knew where to put his people in a safest place and make way how to recover things that has been lost. That things was the people who lost their hope in this world.

My childhood place

Long time ago, In one forest mountain my grandparents was the first person who discovered the mountain, there were no persons and no owner during that time,It was a forest. There are lot's of wild animals and big trees. My grandfather was a hunter and a tree logger he used to cut wild tress and hunt the wild animals during that time. My grandfather were always carried my dad everywhere he go, in short my father was grown up as a farmer and a logger just to survived for their daily needs.

My dad grew up and became matured getting stronger and what he was learn from his dad he also used it for a living, it is somthing that he used what he learned from his father. One day my father and his friends talked about the mountains were they grown up, ever since that mountains there were no owner at all, so they talked how to own that land as a real owner, during that time theres no paper to sign in order to own the land, what you saw is yours because only few people can stay at mountainous area. so they went to the top of the tallest mountain and every part that they can reach their sight is belong to one of them. So my father own a big land with 42 or more hectars big, since then they owned that land and they called "PANTAG" which the name came from pantog" pantog mean egg of the boy"or testes in english" there are 2 mountains small pantog and big pantog but later on they changed into pantag its because pantog sound strange for ilonggo tribes. My father started to plant coconut trees,banana,manggo and verything that possible to produced foods for their daily needs and also they started farming. They also grow chicken,goats, cows and carabaos also horses, my father and my mom strived the poverty when they are young.But through their hardship and hard working, i can remember how much sweat, sunburned, calueses my father experienced during that day. Until the late 1970's the pantag mountain was known to be rich in foods, specially cocount farm, we own thousands of cows, carbaos and other more.

My father was a great desiplinarian person i've ever known. He was very strict and we're afraid of him. We always watched our steps not to make any fault or else you know what i mean, But my dad was a great father and a great grandfather for our kids, all person really like him, He always willing to help to other person, Once he was become a leader in our place,year 1995 to 2001 if i'm not wrong,even once he didn't did any bad against the rules, we was a great examples to other.

He just gave up his obligation its because he is getting older and not enough power to handle his work. All person doesn't want him to stop, they really love him. But his father was already tired and need to rest. 3 years ago my father was passed away. But before he become weak he brought us in his land, he intoduced us everything that we need to do if ever he was gone. He really love the pantag mountain.and he told us please take care tyhis land because all of the hardship i invested in here. I know how much effort my mom and dad made during that day when they started to make as their own.

How much they wanted to grow and to make the land rich.And now they are harvesting the land with tons of money a year. we are 14 siblings and we all grown up with that land.That place became part of our Bad and good memories until we grew old, until we have our own family. We can still recall the events that was happened before, its the memory that never lost at all.

Talking about pantag which was been owned by my grandfather,until to our generation this land has a big secrets which can make you rich. I dont know at first what lies under this land of ours why there so many rich people who do like to buy in a higher prices. Since my father love this place because this was the place where he first learned what the world is, and this is the place where he learned how to make life more meaningful by having family and children.Even though that land will be the ticket for survival from poorness still my father didnt give up anything he had, until we discover that this land is full of minerals ( copper). 90% of the copper can be found in our land, therefore lots of miners are interested to make a deal with my father.